Aging

I often wondered, over the course of my life what it is like to age. I am 51 and I am still not sure. When I got married I asked my mother when I would feel different. When I had my first child I asked when I would start to feel like a mom. Recently I asked her when I was going to start to feel old.

I do not feel old at all. I know I am starting to look older. I am gaining some weight, things are sagging, there are some wrinkles and age spots, but I just do not feel like I am old. I have navy blue color in my hair, I wear Nikes most of the time, my of my good friends are at least 20 years, if not more, younger then I am. I play video games, I go to gaming conventions, I go to baseball games with my son and his friends.

My husband once said he just wanted me to be "normal". What is normal? Do I have to wear clothes I am not comfortable in or have my hair like everyone else's? Does getting older mean I have to give up everything I enjoy? Does it mean my sense of what I like to do or talk about has to change because people perceive me as out of touch because I am not a 20 something?

I am going to keep on being me till I run out of time. I can only hope others do the same!